Well, here I am neglecting my blog again. It would be great to devote more time to this, and I hope to start doing that soon. I have also wondered if I should move the blog to a real address rather than just blogger. It would be nice to be able to separate things by category...then again the main thing I would want to keep separate is my book reviews (unless people actually like those being here). I could just have a separate blog for them.
Well, there has been a bit going on in the past couple of months. I will do the update by person.
J - The Husband
He was recently promoted to Major. This is one of the "big" promotions as it changes him from a Company Grade officer to a Field Grade. It is a little more pay, quite a bit more responsibility. It is good for his career that he made it as quickly as he did. He has to go to a school now though..which is a lot of work. However, he is brilliant and I am sure he will do well. (No, I did not get the word brilliant from Harry Potter...I have always talked like that.)
D - Me
Not much as changed with me. I am going to have to start eating healthier and exercising more. I found out I have very high cholesterol. I am proof that very skinny people can have this problem. For those who do not know me...I am 5'3" and weigh about 105 pounds. If I can have high cholesterol anyone can..so be sure that your cholesterol is good. Please get your's checked..even if you are skinny and appear to be fit.
S - my 7 year old girl
S has had a lot going on. Her brain tumor is getting more symptomatic. Some of the things I am not going to go into in order to protect her privacy. However, things have not been easy for her. She is struggling with reading (she says the words move around on and off the page). She is having problems getting along with some of the other children her age. We have some appointments set up in the next 2 months at Vanderbilt. I am hoping they can provide us with more answers than we have now. We ask that you pray for the doctors we will be talking to, as well as us. We want to make the correct decisions regarding her care. Within these appointments are some appointments that will involve big decisions.
I - my 5 year old boy
I is still about the same. He excels in all things academic. He struggles with transitions and being able to deal with not doing something perfect the first time every time. He is very competitive and has problems dealing with losing in games. He is able to sit through classes now though without getting too upset and is able to deal with other children being around him. He starts K in the fall. I am going to be working with him until then making sure he can do everything they want him to be able to do. I think where he will struggle the most is the fine motor areas.
C - my 2 year old girl
She will turn 3 next week. Where did the time go?
C is still very behind in her development. The scales they do at doctor checkups put her at 18 months. She has a development screening through Child Find . It put her below the 7% in almost all areas. The only normal areas were cognitive functioning (meaning she is able to think and form some sort of answer at least in her head) and receptive speech. Both of those were in about 50%. Her speech is in the 3%. (This means that if you grouped her with 100 children her age, 97 of them would speak better than she does, 2 would not speak as well). In counting she was in the 1%. but they assured me that was her speech causing the problem and not a predictor of mathematical skills.
We also had what we had expected all along confirmed. She has a reduced visual field. (She can see just fine straight out, but cannot see to her sides or toward her feet.). They put her visual field at about 40 degrees. Normal is 180 degrees. This is what many people refer to as tunnel vision. (This could very well be due to her optic nerve tumors. We will have to consult the doctors a little more to find out for sure.)
She scored low enough on the screenings to qualify for a special education preschool. She will go 2 days a week. She will receive speech, occupational, physical, and visual therapies and interventions while she is there. She starts the week of her 3rd birthday. I have heard great things about the school and hope I will get to hear her really speak to me soon.
She also has a lot of appointments coming up and we ask for prayers that the doctors and we make the right decisions for her.
We are just taking things day to day at this point. There is no way to know what the future holds. People ask me what gets me through all the appointments and all the uncertainty. My answer to that is simple. It is my faith and the ability to count my blessings. I do not understand how people make it though things like this (and worse) without it. Sometimes when I feel down and the worry and mom guilt is getting to me, I listen to Christian music as well as turn to the Scriptures. Below I will share some of my favorite songs as well as scriptures. The names of the songs will be linked to videos on You Tube, so you can listen to them if you wish.
Before anyone gets mad and asks what I have to feel so bad about since my kids are still alive and their are kids who are sicker - I realize that. I do know I have a lot to be thankful for. Still, what they are going through is real. It may not be as bad as what other people suffer though..but it is still hard. I am not just "feeling sorry for myself" or "wanting attention". I just want people to pray for my girls (and Ian). I do not want life to be hard for them. I want happiness and health for them. I do count my blessings, as I said previously..that is one of the things that gets me through.
Scriptures This is not an exhaustive list...just some favorites. There are many many more that could be added to this list.
1 Pet 5:7
1 Chronicles 16:11
2 Timothy 1:7
1 Corinthians 10:13
The book of Job is also an excellent source to go to when you are thinking you have more than you can bear.
Because He Lives
Blessings - Laura Story
Praise You in This Storm
Count Your Blessings (wish I could have found a better link for this one..this one sounds too autotuned for my liking)
I Know You Are There - Casting Crowns
Who Am I - Casting Crowns
Voice of Truth
It is Well With my Soul (please read the story at the bottom of the video. The person who wrote this song went through more than anyone should have to. Still, his faith in God gave us this beautiful song as a result of his anguish.)